Confessions of a faithless Workaholic: Why You Too Should Think Twice About Why You Go To Church


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Silent, absent, and distant. That is how I have felt about my “walk” and my “relationship” with Christ over the last several months. And no doubt many of you may have wondered where the fresh articles, challenging content, and wittily-written musings have gone from the pages of THEOLOGY21.

And while I have been overwhelmingly busy with a new job and a new season in life, my “faith” and the common expression of that faith through writing has dried life a cracked and barren well in the midst of a drought.

I have felt distant—something was off, different, and wrong.

In the absence of working at my church or writing for this blog, I felt empty and distant from Christ. My faith has been on life-support.

Why, I have begun to ask, do I feel this way when I have the true inheritance of Christ? Or do I? Am I fully in Christ? If so, where is the joy and peace?

Christ had not left me. Nor had I left God. So what was wrong? Everything was wrong. And I suspect many have the very same problem which I now know that I had.

I was busy working for Christ instead of working with Christ.

I was busy counting and being comforted by the works of my faith rather than my faith itself.

I, like Martha busily working in the kitchen serving Christ and getting angry at others for not doing the same, was caught up in works.

As Luke recounts,

 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”

“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”  Luke 10: 38-42

Martha, like myself, was not only distracted by her work for Christ but she substituted serving Him for being with Him. She substituted righteousness through proximity to Christ for righteousness through service and working for Christ.

I am ashamed to say, this story is a dark mirror of my own heart and life. I clung to working for the church, writing blogs, and studying my bible as a badge of righteousness and a security blanket to which I clung, feeling safe and righteous.

And while difficult and ugly to examine one’s heart, I challenge you to ask a difficult question:

Why do you work or serve at a church—or even go to church in the first place!?

Why do you read your bible or read articles and visit webpages such as these?

Are you more like Martha or Mary deep down inside?


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  • I’m so glad to find out whats been up with you lately! I posted on the theology21 facebook group with no replies and figured something is up. 

    It’s good to know that this is something you’ve been working on and something that God has revealed to you!

  • Thehumblesearcher

    I have found myself in this exact same position, burning out to the point of apathy with the church. I find God now holding me in place while I struggle to try and make some effort of myself to progress forward toward something, anything. I think maybe I missed the point of this walk, that its not really toward something, but rather just walking next to Him. Thanks for this Jon, it really echos my own heart right now.

  • I think you have said it perfectly well. It is not where you are heading toward…as if you are could trudge along toward Christ through dark and dank swaps of sin…but simply enjoying and being in him, already perfect. You are already complete in Christ—the truly scandalous message of Grace

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